Vicodin Consulting

I write to you in fever and Vicodin haze. 


It seems things have taken a turn for the worse since I've last posted, as my mutant inhabitants have rendered me (at times) incapacitated, writhing in pain, calling out for some god, spirit, cereal mascot to intervene. The pharmaceutical gods have smiled on me, however, and now I get Vicodin!! 

I have also tapped into the alternative medicine font for pain relief. I am always amazed by the ability of properly placed acupuncture needle to reduce pain; the ability of peppermint oil to cool fever heat. Apparently, acetaminophen can be harmful to the liver in large doses! Which is super, not just because of the whole "my liver is already fucked" thing, but because I will probably be on some form of the drug for at least a month or two as I wait for a clinical trial spot to open up, which happens when they kill off a patient or see a cohort (group of patients) through a full treatment cycle. Of course I was not informed of this by my oncologist, who prescribed the acetaminophen, because he really likes for me to learn things on my own. Or at least that is what I tell myself.

...to convince myself he still possesses some iota of usefulness as I attempt to finagle a treatment plan with the combined efforts of my family and friends. 
So anyway, some creativity is needed on the pain relief front.

In order to circumvent the lack of guidance in this whole "finding a clinical trial so my tumors shrink and I do not die" thing, I have transformed myself into a clinical trial consultant. The job, like so many other glamorous consulting gigs, has a large travel component -- involving flying around the country to less-than-desirable locations to conduct industry research and facilitate deals. By "conducting industry research", I mean determining whether any of the information provided before the visit via phone, email, idiot nurse or clinicaltrial.gov posting is at all factual or rooted in reality. By "facilitating deals", I mean pitching my disease profile to oncologists while not-so-subtly begging them to test unproven toxic chemicals on my person. Unlike most top consulting firms, company X ("my body") provides no training or any actual benefits. Though company X's clinical trial team promises to cover all the bases of a proper consulting experience: schmoozing, analysis, long hours, and pretending I can solve complex problems in front of others. 

Tomorrow I arrive in the culinary capital of the world: Rochester, Minnesota. Frequent guests of the hotel I'm staying at boast proximity to the very best in Midwestern fine dining. This apparently refers to the Red Lobster and Olive Garden in the neighboring strip mall. 

This is of course assuming I even make it to the hotel in question, as I managed to book a flight on what is probably the only airline in history to receive multiple 'zero out of ten' customer reviews. This is all because I insisted on a direct flight, as any less time I can spend not catching pneumonia in a freezing cold cabin with wheezing old men is worthwhile. Side note: fevers are wildly useful if you find yourself in need of a makeshift radiator when dealing with what can only be the airline's best take on an adventure in Antarctica. There is some sweating involved, but I am told sweaty is the new "not sweaty", so ..

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I meant to update sooner, but waking up around 5:30 every morning to writhe, cry, take drugs, and pray for some medically induced coma to befall me until I get into a clinical trial has a less than positive impact on one's ability to focus. I learn something new every day! If all goes well, you will have another Vicodin-fueled post coming at you soon. 

To tide you over, I'll leave you with some highlights of my Ohio trip:

sticky-handed oncologists, naps on stone slabs, and a pizza guy with an affinity for left-handers. yow-za.